narrated by: Grace
We were all upset for Paloma when she didn’t make it into college, I know that I thought the two might break up, but they seem to be going strong still. It’s a relief to me and Mom, we both really adore Paloma, and think of her as family.
Lily was the only little kid that hung out with the adults, she is in love with Ainsley. She sees me all the time, so I’m not a novelty to her, but Oliver surely is. She always wants to show him how she can roll on the ground, or tell him about the worms they use to fish in the pond. He’s a good brother, always gives her attention.
The rest of the big kids entertained themselves in the yard, away from the adults. I remember when it was me and Emma making our own clique, with Violet-Adele, and Oliver tagging along.
I had tried avoiding being alone with Mom for most of the afternoon, but she had Ainsley inside when I was cleaning up the dishes. She was hurt that Emma didn’t come, and feels that she’s deliberately keeping Chaz away from her.
It was awkward, because I knew that Emma was avoiding Mom and Dad. I don’t want to be in the middle of it, so I just shrug my shoulders over it. I’ve been telling Emma for the past few months that Mom is trying to get everything together, and seems to be doing well. In the past, she never would have invited us all over, but this was all her idea. I prefer to think people can change for the good, and accept them for who they are in the meantime. Emma doesn’t see it that way.
Back at home, Benjamin takes care of Ainsley’s bedtime bath. He works nights a lot, so he insists on taking over all nightly duties when he is here. I actually physically miss her while he does the baths, and he’s always sending me off to relax or catch up on email.
With a little bottle, and a rock in the chair, he has her fast asleep.
Once Ainsley is asleep, Benjamin will read his magazine, and I’ll do some browsing on the stylist websites. I’m always trying to bring the latest looks into my Salon.
We only do our own thing for a little while, and usually end up snuggling and talking somewhere. Lately it’s been out on the porch, before winter moves in. I had been thinking since Ainsley was just a few weeks old that I’d like her to have a sibling she can be close to, like I am with Emma.
I was wary of bringing it up to Benjamin, he’s much more of a planner than I am, and usually requires a significant amount of time to pass before any big decisions are made. But I asked anyway if we could try for another one, and have the kids be one year apart. Our own little “Irish twins” I suggested.
He actually agreed, as long as this was the completion of our family. He thought two was a good number, and much more manageable than my family’s seven kids. I agreed, plus I really love our home and we only have three bedrooms.
I want to continue to do well with my Salon. It’s difficult enough with me and Emma busy with our own kid, I had to hire another person to help, and split the management shift with Emma. I don’t want to be my Mother and require the help of everyone else to help raise my kids; I think I can manage Salon Sisters and two children.
Emma didn’t like the idea of hiring, and I think that’s why she doesn’t like Joslyn. She isn’t mean, just downright indifferent.
I really like her though, she’s pretty funny, and she’s decent cutting hair. I need someone else to run a salon chair when Emma is at home with Chaz. If we want to have more hours open, we need the help.
At the end of the month, I did a big sale for “Back to School” and had Oliver’s help with putting pamphlets up all over campus. It worked great, we really had a big crowd that kept coming all day Saturday.
I think Emma was glad at this point that we hired Joslyn, cause there were people waiting outside to get the discount.
It’s a juggle to make sure that we are spending enough with Ainsley, with one another, and still doing our own things. I wake up early to get in a morning jog, while Benjamin gets himself ready for work. It’s my time I get to spend with my own thoughts, and Murphy. He’s been my jogging partner for nine years, and is getting up there in age now.
When I get back home, we trade off, and Benjamin heads into the fire station.
If I have the day off, I usually meet up with Rebecca down at Hamilton Park. The great thing about living in Millwood is that we can walk pretty much everywhere, Ainsley enjoys taking walks in her stroller.
Rebecca shared that her and Quint decided they weren’t going to try for another baby. She admits that she hasn’t recovered from the miscarriage, and it sounded silly to her own years, because it’s been two years. Dr. Russo-Traver says there is a higher risk of complication for her though, and she says that she can’t take that risk again.
Quint mentioned the idea of adopting, just putting their information in with Kenzie down at Social Services, an seeing where the chips fall.
I’m happy for them and the possibility of this happening. I think Scarlett would make a great big sister, with some time. She is interested in Ainsley, and while I don’t think she’ll ever be as doting as Lily is, she seems to like her well enough. I imagine with her own brother or sister, she would be more attached.
They have an interview with Kenzie in October to see if they want to adopt locally or internationally. They haven’t decided on that one yet, Quint is concerned with a birth mom trying to butt in, but Rebecca likes the idea of helping a child from here.
I was anxious to fill Benjamin in with everything when he got home from one of his long shifts, but when he came home he found me a mess in the kitchen. It seems unfair that someone as kind as Rebecca can’t have a child on her own, while there are others in the world that have more than they can handle.
He tried giving me a hug, and I had to push him away cause he smelled like metal from the tanks at work. I ran to the upstairs bathroom, and threw up my lunch from earlier.
Benjamin came in once the sobbing, and vomiting had stopped, and sat on the floor against the door.
“So, does this mean we’re having another baby?”
I nodded meekly, suddenly feeling very tired, and hormonal. We were going to have another baby, and suddenly it seemed wrong to make Ainsley share us so soon in life. Not to mention that it came so easily, how many babies had Rebecca seen born since she started trying for her second baby.
Yep, baby number 2 due in June, when Ainsley turns 1. They TFB on their own, and I love it! I think it fits perfectly that Grace would want them close together, like her and Emma. They are only one year apart too. IFS is 2 for each of them, so other than an oopsy, this will be it for them.
Rebecca lost her baby in fall 2014, and since then, four playables have been born, five if you count Alex’s. Which is 3 babies in Rebecca’s circle of friends, Ainsley, Molly, and Roman. They will not TFB, but they both have the want. Rebecca has had the adoption bubble above her head a few times, and so that’s the direction they’ll go. When? Not too sure.
I loved seeing Oliver and Paloma together at the party, she sure does like her boyfriend. She was always smiling fondly at him. She had googly eyes for Ainsley too, and I could just imagine her thinking, one of these might be nice… then Ainsley threw up on Paloma, just to remind her to not have any kids too soon!
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