narrated by: Oliver
It’s just the beginning of my junior year, and things are not starting out on the same foot as previous years have. The exciting part of this year, is that in January, I get to spend a semester being a Student Teacher at Jefferson High School. I think it will be a little odd, seeing that I was friends with some of the students still there. I can hardly be nervous about it though, because I have my buddy Isaiah and his drama filling up my life.
Him and Elise, the ones who were talking marriage just last year, apparently had a big falling out this summer. I’ll admit that I didn’t keep in touch with many, a little traumatized after witnessing Abby drown. I still don’t even know the full story of why Elise broke it off, I just know that I don’t want to ask.
They fight constantly, and are always trying to get the other one jealous. She tries flirting with Peter, he’s just this freshman kid, and doesn’t even know what he’s walking into. He just seems happy to have some attention.
Isaiah is no better, he’s set his eyes on Meg, and making her his rebound. I really don’t like this at all. I feel bad for her, I rejected her proposition that we date years ago, and it sort of went badly for her after that. Paloma kept picking fights with her, and sort of ostracized her.
Meg seems smart though, and didn’t fall for Isaiah’s advances, but it sort of put a target on her back.
He’s livid now. She embarrassed him in front of Elise, when he was trying to make Elise jealous. It seems he’s putting all his anger into Meg now, and won’t drop it.
I’m just kind of sick of it all. My classes are getting harder, and there’s a pressure to have an idea of at least what grade level I’d like to teach. I just haven’t been able to decide. I feel too young to teach high school, but at the same time, a piece of me is interested in teaching Science.
One thing is certain though, this summer changed me, and I don’t necessarily like the direction it’s leading me. After Abby drowned, instead of staying at my parent’s house for the summer, I quickly enrolled in a summer class and moved back to the dorms. I felt ill-prepared and more than a little jolted to have someone just die, right before my eyes. It was unsettling, and I haven’t been a good boyfriend since.
Everything in my life is moving in one direction, with college, and student teaching, and it seems like Paloma’s life is going in a completely different direction. She’s occupied with working at the cafe, and caring for her sister, and filling in very mature rolls that I fully respect. I just can’t relate to what’s happening in her life, and our schedules make it impossible to see each other much.
All of this scared me. So I didn’t deal with it all summer. But now that classes are in session, it just didn’t seem right delaying, and hoping my feelings would change. So I called her up to meet me at the Student Union to talk everything over.
You sort of hope that the other person knows where things are going, so when you get to this point, you don’t have to actually say anything. Paloma didn’t suspect anything though. I had to explain to her, that I did still care for her, but that we needed to take time apart.
Which I guess gave too much hope that we’d get back together, though I can’t say we never would, I just don’t see it at the moment. I had to tell her by space, I meant breaking up, and seeing other people.
I feel like the lousiest person in the world at this point. She thought there might be someone else that I had feelings for, and there isn’t. Not one specific person as much as it’s the desire to have new experiences, and get to know other people as a whole.
She cried, but when I tried to say anything to make the moment a little less horrible, she got upset and left.
Now that we are broken up, all I can do is wonder if it’s the biggest mistake of my life. She’s been my best friend since we were kids, we both grew up with difficult families, and I always felt we just got each other.
I dreaded when the news would reach my family, Mom was the first to call about it, but she wasn’t the only one. Everyone, even Grandma Mandy loved Paloma, and thought once I graduated we’d get married. I know that Paloma had hopes for that, it was one reason she didn’t want to move out on her own, save money for a wedding and our own house.
The only thing to keep me from wallowing is Isaiah. I was walking across campus to class, and saw him really chewing Meg out, and it just really pissed me off. I hated when Paloma did it in high school, but I didn’t do anything about it. I didn’t want to be that guy again.
Isaiah was really mad that I’d even think of interrupting him, and that I should be on his side, afterall, girls are evil, among other choice words.
I don’t know what’s gotten into him lately, but I can’t even stand to call him a friend. I felt bad for Meg, so I ran to catch up with her and see if I could make the whole thing right.
She agreed to coffee but was hesitant. It’s not like we are friends at all, so I felt awkward once I caught up to her.
Of course there was a giant line, but she was okay with the wait.
Overall, it was a nice little coffee break. She told me that she’s hoping to be a screenwriter, maybe some horror films. And that her roommate, Paige is really uptight, and not really happy with having her as a roomie.
I guess that Peter is working it both sides with Elise and Paige though, she said that he’s been making out with both of them without ether knowing. I’m surprised to say the least, I always took him as this sweet, naive kid, but apparently he is learning how to make it with the ladies.
I don’t see her around campus too much, and she said that she’s mostly in her room. She’s working on a script now that she’d like to get finished and see about making into a film with the college theater group.
I did tell her that I was sorry about the awful things that happened in high school, and she brushed it off. But I do think she appreciated the apology, she suggested we get together to study sometime, and when we went to leave she gave me a hug.
I feel a little better about everything, knowing I’ve made amends with Meg. Not to mention, that she seems to know how to handle Isaiah pretty well on her own. I think she’s gotten fed up with people walking on her.
Now I’m just forcing myself to focus on my classes, and being prepared for my student teacher job in just a few months.
Notes: When I rolled my ROS “biggest want fulfilled” I thought, this is going to be a boring one. Oliver rolled it, and see, he’s all about studying, and looking at stars, and making friends. But after the death of Abby, his wants took a complete change. Suddenly he was rolling wants for other women, and his highest want was to “Public Woohoo with 3 different Girls” So he had to end things with Paloma, sadly. I honestly never thought they’d make it as long as they did, and now I’m sad to have done it. I’m hoping they’ll go back to being friends down the line.
As for Isaiah and Elise. They both wanted to get married, but I decided they had to wait. Well this play session they did not like each other at all. I really have no clue what happened. She was all flirty with Peter (who was kissing both Elise and Paige!) which of course sent Isaiah off the deep end into rage, and now Isaiah pretty much hates Meg after she rejected his ACR flirting time and time again. So there’s lots of drama, and I didn’t see any of it coming.
And honestly, it was a ton of fun to play! I can’t wait to get back into the college. I have Jefferson update scheduled for the winter, and Oliver will be in it for his student teaching. I’m excited to do this for the first time too. Thanks to Carla for the awesome idea eons ago, so happy to finally have someone to do it!
Nano starts soon, and I am afraid this blog will be on hiatus during November… I don’t see myself getting all these updates up that I’ve photographed, I have lots going on with the real holiday before Nov. 1.