narrated by: Lainey
Alice text that she witnessed Isaac making out with Lauren, his ex-girlfriend. I confronted Isaac, who said it was all lies and that Alice was jealous of our relationship. It didn’t seem like something she’d do, but then we weren’t exactly talking. I kept my eye on Isaac, it seemed when we went to Duffy’s campus bar, Lauren was always around. If Isaac saw me come in the back room, he’d shove Lauren away.
It seemed fishy, ether she really couldn’t get a hint, or he was playing me. It started messing with my head, so I asked him again, and he was livid. He accused me of being a nag, and killing our relationship.
He was mean and hateful, and more like the guy that Alice and Julia had painted him to be. I wondered if I had known him at all, or if it had all been a farce.
It didn’t completely sink in until I walked into Duffy’s on a Friday night and they had claimed the back corner for a for public display of affection. I wanted to hide in the bathroom the entire time until they left, but just hid in a booth where they couldn’t see me.
After they left, I got a beer, and had a crazy-lady meltdown. The guy next to me had probably thought I was a normal girl before hand. Leave it to me to make any situation awkward.
He didn’t seem to mind, which probably meant that he thought I was an easy target. I was not going to be fooled by that, I would spend my evening drinking my feelings away.
Unfortunately, he was patient, and spent the evening by my side, dancing, and even kissing me. I wouldn’t say he wanted to get me drunk, but he didn’t step in to stop my actions.
The fog seemed to wear off in my dorm room, and while I pushed him away at first, I did end up sleeping with him. I wasn’t drunk at the time, I wanted to move forward from Isaac, and not have him be my only.
Everything is a mess, I feel foolish to believe a boy over my best friend, we played together when we were toddlers! And knowing that my parents would be thrilled with this news, and how ridiculous I must have looked to them over Christmas, declaring my love like a buffoon.
Everywhere I go, there is Lauren and Isaac, kissing, goosing, and giggling, likely about me. Minor Hall has never seemed so small, and I don’t know how Hadley handled it all these years.
Surprisingly, it has opened an opportunity for me and Hadley to become friends, a common enemy and all. She used to make me cry and bully me when I was in middle school, but she’s mellowed over the years, and I’ve grown into myself.
She freaking hates Isaac still, but now she just ignores him. She doesn’t want him to know that he has any power over her, and has given me advice on how to pull off the devil-may-care attitude. It also means that I have someone to hang out with and talk to in the dorm, so I’m not just alone all the time, and looking pathetic.
I did call Alice, and we made up. I’ve been a jerk to her so many times over the years, and she always accepts me back. I hope I don’t take her for granted again, or get so caught up with a boy that I lose track of myself and who my friends are.
I’m helping her with her studies, she changed majors at the end of her junior year, instead of drama she is studying psychology. She has years of work to make up if she wants to graduate on time.
I’m assuming Alice mentioned that we were hanging out to her parents, because lo, my Mom shows up on campus asking me out for coffee. I didn’t know she knew, otherwise I would have feigned sickness.
Naturally, she said she was so sorry for my heartache, and that I would find someone better. She also mentioned that I had plenty of time to worry about boys. I think parents get a booklet on what to say in these situations, it all sounds trite. I know that they are doing the happy dance, my parents hated him just because he got Julia pregnant. Which now that we aren’t together, I’d say his response to that pregnancy is a pretty giant character flaw.
I hate that I could have been so naive, and girl-in-love over him. What was I thinking? I’m taking Hadley’s advice on ignoring Isaac wholly, and putting my spare time into my studies.
Other than helping Alice, I’m also helping Hadley. I think I should have signed up to be a professional tutor, gotten some extra spending money. Unlike Alice, Hadley doesn’t stand a chance to graduate at the end of the school year. She’s fallen majorly behind in some medical concepts that are imperative to her senior year.
Everyone is gearing up for finals, and stressed to the maximum. I’ve even begun to befriend Chad, who I majorly crushed on all through high school, but Hadley nabbed. His parents wanted him to go into law, but he didn’t know what he wanted, so he’s landed in a Philosophy major. It’s not that hard, but he isn’t motivated for it, since he doesn’t even know what he’d do with the major.
We study for hours, then unwind with a computer game. They’re all dated, but it’s still better than sitting in my room alone, or wandering campus. I’m avoiding Duffy’s, I don’t want to run into the blond guy I slept with, or see anymore of Isaac and Lauren then I must.
One afternoon, Chad tried to lean in and kiss me. My freshman year, I would have swooned, declared love, and imagined myself living blissfully ever after.
But not after Isaac. I need time to recover from the heartbreak, and this is my last year at college, and I’m going to focus on my studies. If I work hard enough, I can nab a position in my career, and skip the entry level garbage. Here’s to a brighter future, without Isaac living down the hall. Please, don’t let him move into the same apartment complex as me this summer.
Notes: Chad tried kissing Lainey and Hadley, and Hadley tried kissing Chad, all kisses were rejected. And while Lainey did sleep with Lance (RA of Linden Dorm), she rejected him later on. So I’m letting her just focus on herself, seems like something she’d do. I really was surprised that Isaac had wormed his way into her heart.
Chad and Isaac are both philosophy careers, I don’t have any plans for them. Hadley failed and is on academic probation, so she will not graduate this year with everyone else. This dorm will be completely empty after this year, with only Perla Martinez entering college (possibly). Hadley will be moving into her medical school rental in Eastborough (she better get in!). My medical school (and graduate students) will need to stay on campus for that portion of their education. In USA, medical school is 4 years, then residency, which will take place in South Port under Morgan’s guidance. She will have several papers to write, and skills to gain, I haven’t narrowed them down yet, will look at the skills required in the medicine field to decide. She also needs to get a 3.5 GPA, and three hobby points in science.
And Lainey is going to be an oceanographer, she matches it perfectly. Originally I thought about doing something with psychology, or social service, but I’ve found Alice and Caitlyn that match those careers perfectly, so Lainey can do her true dream now. One day I will have a place for her to work….
Chad – Philosophy- 3.7
Hadley (Probation) Biology – 3.4
Isaac – Philosophy 2.6
Lainey – Biology – 3.2
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