I went out to Eastborough for a visit with Caitlyn, she’s all set up in her new family housing without Lewis. Apparently he does come by to spend time with Thomas, and while they are reportedly still dating, it doesn’t sound like it from Caitlyn’s stories.
She has another student helping her out with care, she’s a Family Development Major. Unfortunately, she can’t schedule her to come regularly, and has to call each time she needs the coverage.
She isn’t getting enough sleep, and while her grades haven’t plummeted, there is just no way she can run at this pace for the next three years. I don’t have a solution for her ether, somethings Dads just can’t fix everything.
But I did give her a bus card for coming back home on the weekends. She isn’t out partying like her friends, including Lewis, and there is no reason why I can’t help out with Thomas while she catches up on sleep and studies.
When I’m at work, she has the apartment to herself, but it’s more manageable than a strange house in the middle of a strange town. While she struggles with the balancing act of motherhood and being a student, she does seem to enjoy Thomas. I think she’s adapted to parenthood better than I did. I just fell into it when I fell in love with Meredith and she came toting toddler, Cara.
She isn’t saying that her and Lewis are broken up, but she is ordering Chinese food regularly, and talking with the delivery guy more and more. I am not dipping my toes into any of this girl-relationship stuff. She may not have her Mother to talk with, but she does have Nadia and Erin.
I haven’t really been a great Dad, not even a mediocre one, not until Meredith divorced me and I finally got my own place after living with Colin and Luca. So when I ran into Cynthia at the pizza joint, I was surprised when she told me there had been an unexpected pregnancy back when we were together.
She sort of just called it all off, and while I had been confused, it had hurt Caitlyn the most. I haven’t dated since then, not that anyone has been knocking on my door anyway. But me and Cynthia hit it off again though, she lost the baby in a miscarriage, and oddly, I wondered what that would have been like to have a child this late in life. I think I would have managed better, but I wouldn’t have been as accessible to Caitlyn as I am now.
We aren’t exactly dating, just companionship. She stays over sometimes, usually weekdays when Caitlyn isn’t going to be home. I don’t want to give her mixed signals, or make things awkward. She had really welcomed Cynthia into our family, well, after she totally flipped out that I wasn’t going to get back together with her Mom.
It’s kind of our secret thing, and I appreciate not having the apartment all to myself. Without anyone to break the quiet, it’s just me and Bazooka. Caitlyn will take him with her once she graduates, so he’s a short-lived solution too. I eat a fair amount of pizza on the nights that Cynthia is not staying over.
Things with me and Colin have never been good, I don’t think there is much I can do to fix all of that, but I have reached out to Luca. He’s always been more sensible, and forgiving. Nadia has been kind enough to host dinner a few times a month, and Mavis is always thrilled to see her Grandpa.
I’ve never been close with Kai, but now he always has stories to share with me when I come by. He is a big reader, but he also enjoys his fair share of video games, which is a weakness of my own.
I look at my son, and his family, and realize that I never had this. Whether it was my own lack of effort, or marrying the wrong woman, irregardless, my kids weren’t raised in this type of home. When Kai over-stuffs his mouth, he isn’t responded to with anger and shouting.
It’s a more loving, reprimand, firm but not abusive. I don’t think I can take any credit for Luca, but he gives me hopes for Caitlyn and Aidan, the two that I invested myself in much more.
I feel like a specatator sometimes, but Mavis is always happy to sit by me, and give me all her smiles. It’s nice to have a fresh start with someone, I think that way about Thomas too. He doesn’t have to realize that I spent most of my adult life lost in games, and television, in a sort of auto-pilot lifestyle.
I also find myself driving down to my sister, Kenzie’s house; she’s just a few blocks away and we rarely see one another. I used to come by, and just get drunk outside by the grill, while Tyler fussed with the ignite. Still can’t believe that my little sis is the Mayor. I’m still working odd jobs, just promoted to a projectionist, just something to pay the bills.
Seems everyone is doing well in their life, and while I’m not ambitious, I don’t want to just putz around, alone and lonely in my senior years. So on impulse, I invited Cynthia to move in with me, and perhaps marry me. It was rather impulsive. I was anxious, I couldn’t even wait until she finished her shift before asking.
We are thinking the courthouse will do, maybe in the warmer months, Cynthia wants to get a sundress for the occasion. Until then, she has moved in with me, we are both too old to waste time waiting, though she’s really not that old when it compares to me.
While we haven’t shared the news, I already know everyone’s reactions, and think that Caitlyn will benefit the most. She’s missed having a real Mom for all these years, and while Cynthia doesn’t have kids, she should do fine with an adult step-daughter.
Notes: Title inspired from ‘All by Myself’ by Irving Berlin.
I found out that Cynthia was pregnant, moved her in with him, then she miscarried. She would have gotten pregnant -4 years ago, back when they dated. Cynthia is romance, and I broke it off originally, because she kept rolling specific wants for others. She had a want to marry Ethan though, so she seems happy enough. She is exactly 50, so I don’t see them having a baby, especially with her aspiration.
This play session was like an epiphany for Ethan, he rolled wants to be friends with Luca, talk to Caitlyn, teach Bazooka (Caitlyn’s beagle) tricks, talk to Cynthia. After all of those were fulfilled, he was seriously just rolling dog wants, like make more dog friends, praise Bazooka… he was one lonely guy!
I did bring Caitlyn in on the weekend to work on her term paper. She has the want to do it, but at her house, alone with Thomas… it just is not getting done. And you can’t schedule a nanny! So the nanny only comes when Caitlyn calls, then she has to dismiss her. It’s all rather a pain. Lewis does come by, and interacts with Thomas, then wants some woohoo from Caitlyn (ACR), but that is about it right now.
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