Silas was here, and she could never wish him away, but it felt like her life before kids was too brief. She had a few things to pick up back at the apartment, and it stung to see Julia moving in. Alice had always been the one with an abundance of friends, and Lainey had never cared much for Julia. When she’d gotten pregnant as a teen, she’d actually looked down on her. It all felt rather ironic now.
She felt incredibly jealous to see that Julia had painted her old room a purple shade, and there were pink towels on the floor that hadn’t found a home yet. When Julia started playing with Wilfreda, it especially stung. She never had been overly affectionate with the cat, but she realized that she’d never live with her again, or be annoyed when she yowled in the night.
This had been Lainey’s first home as an adult, and she had shopped with Alice while she finished university, and they had decorated it together. It was no wonder she was possessive of it. But she had decided with Michael to buy a house, and to raise Silas in Millwood. She couldn’t have it both ways, and worked to push the envy aside. She was grateful that Julia had moved in, she had left Alice with a large rent that would be a burden for one person to handle.
She knew Alice was feeling jealousy of her own, wanting a relationship, and the prospect of a baby. Lainey didn’t know why it always seemed that they got what the other one wanted, but that’s how it had always been.
When they went to grab their last few items, Lainey vowed to try and like Julia. She was kind to Silas, and to Alice, that there really was no reason to not at least be friendly towards her.
While Alice went on living the single life, and wondering if she’d find true love, Lainey was out in Millwood. She owned the house with the help of her parents generous donation, and it was hers, not Michael’s. He wanted to marry her, and Alice would say yes in a heartbeat, but Lainey wasn’t sold.
She told him regularly that they were on a trial basis, that ‘this’ being everything in her life, was too much of a change. She needed time. She still could barely believe that she was a Mother, that adding wife to one of her titles tipped the bucket.
She was grateful that her Dad had gotten him a job as security. It allowed her to return to work after two weeks off, and leave Silas in his hands during the day.
They quickly fell into a routine, and they both knew that they had what others considered a ‘good’ baby. This was a welcome blessing. He also loved his swing, so Michael was able to eat lunch and it wasn’t just lunchmeat sandwiches, he could actually cook something while Silas played happily.
When he napped, Michael did work around the house. They were beyond skint, so it was usually just filling in holes that the wild neighborhood dogs dug up.
When Silas did get upset, they both felt ill-equipped to calm him. Tim had insisted that it was okay for babies to cry, that it strengthened their lungs, but it felt wrong to allow it; it felt like a parental failure.
Thankfully it rarely happened, and was quickly over.
They would get a few hours in the evening together, and then Michael was off to work third shift at the mall. He missed working at the comic store, but this paid better and had actual potential for a career. He had never dreamed of being a police officer, it had all just came together because Tim had offered it. One day, he hoped to marry his daughter, and didn’t want there to be any ill-feelings between them.
Thankfully he liked the job, and so it was working out alright. He would call in the evening, and say good night to Silas. They had just moved him from his bassinet.
Lainey felt that Michael had the better parenting role, Silas was a good sleeper and by the time Michael left at 8pm, she only had a good hour left with Silas before he was out. She got to feed him a midnight bottle and a diaper change, but otherwise she missed most things.
Her parents became regulars at her house on the weekend, they were much more smitten as grandparents than she had ever anticipated. They had been hesitant about a baby at her age, but since his arrival, had thrown themselves full force into their new roles.
Her Mom would teach her meals to cook, and they’d have a family dinner, with most of them standing or spread between the kitchen and living room. They really didn’t have the space to host dinners.
Michael always anticipated these dinners, as Bekah cooked much better than Lainey, though she wasn’t a poor cook herself. They just lacked the experience in the kitchen that Bekah had gleaned over the years.
Her parents loved Michael, it might have been rocky at the start, but it had all changed when he’d taken the new position. She knew her Dad was already eyeing Silas to one day be a police officer too, but she was adamant that he could be whatever he wanted to be.
Some nights while Michael worked, Alice would come over. She had started the online dating, and had zero success.
They would talk with guys, and Lainey would watch and encourage things for her to say. She didn’t know why her best friend repelled boys, she’d always thought Alice was prettier and nicer than herself, and she’d had no shortage of guys in her own life.
She worried about her doing the online dating though. She encouraged Alice to give her any guy’s information that she intended to meet in person. She didn’t tell Alice, but she fully intended to have her Dad do a background check on him. So far though, she hadn’t connected with anyone.
Michael came home after just two weeks at his new position with news that he had been accepted into the Police Academy; he was going to be a cadet. It came with a nice bonus, so they could stock their shelves better at home, but it was first shift just like Lainey.
He came home to find her awake with Silas, who was having an off-night and was struggling to sleep.
He knew that Lainey wouldn’t take the news well. It didn’t matter that it was a better job, it ruined their plan. He almost wished he hadn’t accepted it, because he could see that he had let her down. She didn’t accuse him of not liking their routine, but he could see the betrayal in her body language, that he was sure she was thinking that.
No matter what he said, he couldn’t calm her down. Silas would need a babysitter. She could take another week off, but then she was out of vacation, and she really didn’t want to use it all. If Silas got sick down the road, she would be the one that needed to take it off. Michael had no vacation, he hadn’t even started being a cadet yet.
The responsibility felt like a burden, and she wished that he could have stayed a security guard a while longer. He wasn’t supposed to be promoted out in just a few weeks on the job, that was absurd. She was positive her Dad was behind it.
In the end, Michael left for his first day as a cadet, and handed Silas over to Lainey. It would take a bit to vet someone properly to be his caretaker. All she could do was take him to work with her.
She felt absurd bringing a huge diaper bag, and a stroller with her to work. For such a little tyke, he required a lot of items. She really hoped that her boss, Avery wouldn’t mind.
She wasn’t friends with her boss, but Avery could relate to having a baby. She’d taken care of Eden entirely without Colin’s knowledge or involvement. She hadn’t had such a nice job as she did now, but she was sure she would have brought Eden in if she had. She relented, as long as it was short lived.
Overall, Silas did well at her work. She knew it couldn’t last, but it worked while he was a newborn. Soon he would want to roll around and play on the floor, but he was happy sleeping most of the time.
Avery happily obliged to keep him happy when he was awake, as long as she didn’t have a tour to give. It seemed like ages since Eden was a baby, and Silas was much happier than Eden had been. He marketed baby fever without even trying.
Her favorite times was after the aquarium had closed, and she’d walk him around, showing him the sharks and tropical fish. He seemed to enjoy his private tours, and she wondered if perhaps he’d be interested in marine biology like her, instead of police like the rest of her family.
He was a distraction at work for her, but she was going to sorely miss him once she found a nanny. She sort of hoped that Michael would move through police academy quickly and be back to third shift, doing patrol or something else. If she could hold out a bit longer, she may never need a nanny for him, as long as her Dad stopped meddling with his promotions.
Notes: I wanted to do a quick play session with these two, since she got pregnant outside of her update, and it will be a bit before next round. Lainey loves Michael and Silas, but she’s perfectly happy not being married, at the moment anyway. She does want to improve her career, and cook the meals that her Mom makes (which is super sweet). And she definitely is smitten with Silas. I think this works for her right now.
Michael got promoted so quickly, I blame Tim. 😉 They had a very good thing going with the opposite shifts, and I’m hoping he will get promoted again quickly. I know there are a lot of lower rank third shift positions because Charlie was on them forever!
I think there is a kind of irony with how things have worked out with Alice and Lainey. Lainey really has gotten all the things that Alice has wanted, and Lainey has never greatly desired the things she has. She wouldn’t get rid of them, but they were never a motivation for her. It was sad to move all her final things out of the apartment though. It worked out well to move Julia in, but I need to get Hadley set up now that she’s back in South Port too.
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