nobody said it was easy

february 2029
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(Gonzales Household Profile)
Cesar Gonzales (38 years), Ella Carver (16 years), Marisol, Manuel (11 years)

They say things about her sister, things that they don’t say about Ella, like how smart Marisol is, and how well-spoken. Adults have already spoken with Mari about great things like higher education and careers. The twins didn’t remember their Mom, but Manny had always been sensitive to the loss, while Mari had been bold enough to say she was glad to not have been raised in poverty by an alcoholic.

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expectations

may 2025
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Cesar Gonzales (34 years), Ella Carver (13 years), Manuel Carver (7 years), Marisol Carver (7 years)

She was being forced to see a counselor, the state decided it would help her find an inner happiness, or at minimum a way to deal with the rotten hand she had been dealt. But her counselor was a young, recent college grad that grew up the daughter of a Mayor, in the most expensive neighborhood in the entire county.

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broken pieces

december 2022
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Cesar Gonzales (31 years), Ella Carver (10 years), Marisol Carver (4 years), Manuel Carver (4 years)

narrated by: Cesar

I had considered marrying Annie at one point, but she always pushed me away. Mom always said that I couldn’t help someone who didn’t want to help themselves, and that’s why I’d backed away. I wished that I hadn’t, maybe I could have saved her if I’d tried more. Instead it’s me raising three kids alone with no other adult to share the responsibility with.

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life starting with goodbye

june 2021
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Cesar Gonzales (30 years), Ella Carver (9 years), Marisol (3 years), Manuel (3 years)

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He still can’t believe that any of this has happened. He wakes in the morning in his same bed, but a new room, and he feels disoriented, a sickness growing in his stomach as his mind struggles to remember before it hits full force. Annie is dead; Annie died. How can that even be? His mind struggles to deny it, is this one of the phases people always talk about? He wonders objectively, distracting himself from the panic inducing pain that hits him straight in the gut, whenever she comes to his mind. He can’t accept it, yet everything about his reality screams it to be true.

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strong in the center

june 2021
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(Carver Household Profile)
Annie Carver (31 years), Ella (9 years), Manuel (3 years), Marisol (3 years)

It had been official two years now, since the twins first birthday, and she lost the court case with Ella’s Dad. Cesar had funded her fight to keep full custody, while the social worker Kenzie fought against her. She didn’t stand a chance against Kenzie, who claimed to have the best interest of Ella in mind.

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and then there were twins

january 2018
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Cesar Gonzales (27 years), Annie Carver (28 years), Ella (6 years)

Another one begins, Cesar is occupying Dr. Morgan, and neither are paying attention to the monitor’s zipping noises as it charts my contraction. The twins’ heartbeats slow when a contraction comes, like it’s squeezing them too tight to breath, but in this case, for their hearts to beat. It always pops back up to one hundred and fifty beats a minute right after though so Morgan isn’t concerned over it.

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